I was fatigue today in school . Yesterday was a happy day for me ! ^^

Seoul Garden at Taka with Flowers and Supporters , allright , I'm fat fat fat fat , hais -o-

Dont know what to do . Still cant stop eating .. whatever la .

Anyway , we went to orchard central , Omggg . The scenary there are so beautiful ,

but its really high , on the way up there , I was daunted I might drop anytime from the escalator man -o- .

Really beautiful , :D

Cheesy , eat only -o-

Hmm , firstly ..

Let start off with this very nice picture except the fact that my brother is over there blocking

the most beautiful view of all .

Secondly , we say " Cheese "

Wha lao -o- , I  looked like I'm been left alone -o- trying to squeeze in with them . aNREKJBEJTE

ERBESREJWBR

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My face soooooooooooooooo Whatever ,

sweet ? heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

The guys

Hais , dont know why my face like this .  Sad si ,

D:

This is worst -o- ohh myyyyyyyyyyyy

Whatever ~

Complain and complain doesnt help , because

I'm just born like this D:

Its monday today , a day where students have sleepy faces and bleary eyes .

Movements made by me was extremely slow , seriously dont feel like going to school , but I still go ..

Because I think that today " Talk " were be motivating , interesting !

& well .. the outcome didt upset me ! Indeed , its really not bad , neither will I said its very boring ,

neither will I also said its really very interesting , But somehow or what , its did made me felt motivating ,

made me asking myself questions , made me want to find my goal . The coach there are hilarious , so funny  !

Having a goal can keeps you motivated , can keep you going .. But I cant find a goal to keep me going -o-

Its used to this that keep me going , but now .. no D:

Know what ? I'm asking everybody around me what 's their dream , I am so eager to know -o- .

Yet , I dont have a dream . I know this is lifeless , but I couldnt find my dream .. Hmm , I love to

play sports , is that a dream ? I am interested in baking cakes , is that a dream ? I love kids ,

is that a dream ? I want to slack my whole life away , can I ? heheheh .. =p

I got fears within me , have you think about what 's yours ?

I feared that if I dont tried my best , the outcome would be disappointing ..

I feared of disappointing others ..

I feared of giving up ..

I feared of not focusing..

I felt so brave to said out my fears , clap clap ~

Well , how should I describe friday ? Haha , I went back home late . I have fun with my friends .

I didt studied , I play & play . Hmmm , how to find such sporty girl like me ? HOHOHOHOHOHO .

Joking !

Putting aside , I went for our " SOFTBALL SMALL OUTING "  today  . Caught Tooth Fairy at westmall ,

Haha , funny si wo ~  Take some photos , sat down chit chat .

Well , Should we try again ? Or .. Should we just let it pass ? I want to , but well , sometimes its dont

go your way .. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ?

I love my girls so much ,

Miss Kamila they all so much D:

Heee , bangs leh . BANGS BANGS BANGS

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL -o-

Fat

My wonderful juniors , except the ball .

Together

Taken during yesterday ,

Doing FNN coursework , slack only .

CA1 is coming . No urge , dont worry -o- . I cant catch up , yet I dont want to do anything about it .

My mind is struggling with my movements everytime . My combined humanlities is killing me , haiz ..

My english is making me daunted ..  Whatever , after CNY then say .

Every second , every min , every hour , every moment meant very much to me .

I just felt secure , comfortable to be with them ! Wondering why too , heeeeee ?

Will tomorrow be a great day out ? ..

I tried to convinced myself , but its doesn't seem to work ..

I was late for school today , I went late to school purposely . Frankly speaking , I dont wish to go

to school .. I dont want to face it ! WHA LAO -o-

My mind was struggling , luckily there 's karen with me all along the day .. The principal called for

karen & me . She was very proud of we girls , she knew that we have tried our best this time round ,

& she is really happy for us . Upon hearing this , I dropped my tears . & whenever each teacher came to

talk to us , my face is glistening with tears again ..

Its takes me quite a while to settle down , each time I looked down to the field , memories start playing

like a film in my mind . Its like a torturing day for me in school today . -o- I just feel like going back home

immediately .. hais -o-

Well , I really have to say this . I got the best coaches in the world . They hid their emotions infront of us ,

they were afraid that its might pull us down .. I cant find the right words to say now , but well .. all I know was that

they are still here for us despite all odds .  But , I dont think I will go for training for the time being  D:

I feel that I need some time to be able to face my coaches again , I'm daunted that I might cry again -o-

Time to move on , velle . I want , I can , I must , I will .

" Ppl will not know hw hard u train they only care abt the result . As long as u tried ur best there is nth to be sad abt "

" Do you girls still want to play for the SRC Carnival ? "

No longer am I able to stand there liao -o-

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round ?

Its was a great game today with OPSS , however .. sadly , we lose the game ..

Its was a day where I saw nobody giving up , everybody is focusing hard ..

We fought hard , we tried holding them tightly .

Batting was nice , I saw everybody hitting the ball .

Errors came in , but nobody give up yet , everyone was baking in the hot sun , trying their best .

Even when there 2 down , nobody is giving up yet .

The desire of winning is still within us .

However , to the last , we lose by 3 runs .. 12 - 9 ..

Everyone was crying , but knowing each of us did well ..

Isn't it a great game ? We lose , its over , over and done ..

Nobody knows the process of how hard we fought through .

They didt see it , even if they seen it , a loser means a loser to them right ?

This is life , reality .

Nobody know the process , winning or losing is the one that matters to them , right ?

No doubt , My secs 3 have wonderful potentials . Muster up your confidence within yourself ,

No slacking , keep going , fight hard , focus , bring out your fire in you .. You girls are gonna make it .

I hoped through today , you girls will really learnt something , Fight back for us okay ? :D

Yes , my mouth said its over , but my mind dont wish to face it ..

Walking back home with glistening eyes ..

Weee ! Yesterday I went out with fish ~ to town , hahahahaha ! Was msging Jinhan , cause she

was at town too ! I'm excited looking for people who was wearing green colour . Everytime I saw someone

wearing green , I will be shocked -o- HAHAHAHAHAA ! Finally ~ We saw you . _O_ , asshole

I didt bought much, & I regretted wasting my $40 _o_ How fish ? Lol -o- Like too big , very funny ..

So sad  ! NY no clothes _o_

Love you so much .

Stop hiding behind me OKAY !

YOU ARE ALWAYS MAKING MY FACE BIGGER AND BIGGER ONLY

_O_

Look at this -o-

My legs hurt -o-----------------------------------------------------

all your fault , heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Ended my tution , so happy . :D

I am not going to get out from my house today , I promised myself to stay at home and do something .

Yes , I will .

My mother is the best , she knew that I have been busy about softball , school work . She know I'm fatigue .

She didt nag at me , yet she is there to ask me to slow down , rest more often , sleep earlier and

drink more water . Still , when I am feeling down , I have my mummy to console me .

Well , Mummy advice is often well thought-out and fair . I really believe that mother know best , and I really

cant live without my mother . I love MYYYYYYYYYYYY ~

2 more days to tuesday ~

Its not just a medal , its something that drive us to our limit .

Its may be NOTHING to you , but its mean everything to us .

Its harder then your 's , can I said that ?

Listening to the beats , trying to get into the zone ..

Gotta take control and make every movement our own ..

We won Yusok Ishak ! But well , this doesnt mean anything , the crucial game start on  next

tuesday . Can we performed like how we did today ? Are we going to lose hopes again ?

The training that Coach Marcus gave us today proved that we can do it . Since we can hit the fast ball ,

 why cant we do it ? So girls , have some faith okay ?

Somehow , I admired Yusok Ishak . I admired that they could take it easy even when they are losing

points , shouldt we learn from them ? Lol . They might not be the best team out there , but I know , one day..

they will made it ! Woo ~ Go Go go !

Emotional discipline is important to us

Come on girls , ^^^^^^^^^^

I will never forget this game . LOL -o-

So nice , so natural . WTH

Love ball .

Wha lao -o- why my pants so high -o-

if next time my pants like this again , tell me leh -o-----------------

so noob .

The winner takes it all , the loser standing small ?

How true is it ?

Of cause , its feel marvellous to be a winner . However ,  its take so much hardwork

along the way for those striving to be winner . All of them have much better perseverance , also

they are able to seize opportunities and know when to be aggressive right ?  I guess ?

What about those who have lost ? No one loves to be a loser -o- However , we should not

looked down on them , They also displayed courage of striving in a competition , just like everybody out

there .. We should encouraged them to coutinue , shouldnt add feelings to their sadness again D:

But well , as losers , we should also learn to accept our losses as no one loves to be a loser right .

We should also learn from the winners , like skills , patience , courage , perseverance and so on right ?

Well , this is something that I learnt from this few days . I hope I will wake up -o-

Haha ! Beyyyyyyyyyyyy . Feel so happy after writing what I have on my mind ! Weee , cheers .

Giving up always overwhelmed us , our mindset are not strong enough ,

Where 's the steely determination ?  Where 's the desire to win ? Isnt it too late to regret now ? D:

Compared to others , we are not a strong team . We may be just a piece of cake to them ..

But if we dont give up easily , fight our way through it , We could make it , I'm sure of that ..

But I cant see it within us ....

I am not doing my part , I dont see the desire in me today , I dont see the agressiveness in me today ,

I am not focusing .. I did not give in my 100% .. Too late to say this _o_ , allright , utterly disappointed =(

Can we start over it again ? 2 more , if we win , we might be in !

So .. let try again ? Take this as a learning experience , Let 's dont repeat this again D:

No more , please no more , I dont want , begging it .. D:

Can you do it , tan velle ? _O_

Can we girls make it ? Can we ? Are we ? Learn ?

I hope , we dont lose hopes now , Not over yet , Go !

I dont wish for anything , I just want us not to give up easily ..

My philosophy " Never say die . "

Yesterday was a marvellous day . I have my tution in the afternoon . ^^ After my tution , I went to

meet SHIQI and off we go to town , heheh ! ^^ I bought a dress for CNY . 

  Decided to go JP , on the way there -o- Its fruitful . Laugh only -o-

I never saw such an interesting person before , she can stand while shaking her head and sleep -o-

Saw a very cute guy , heeeeeeeeee . Please remmeber me , I come find you one day ^^

He eventually smiled you know not .

& Why is that wherever we go , everybody is looking at us ? -o-

Are we that weird ? So sad lor . Or are we toooooooooo ? Haha just joking !!!!

Dont like , I am not an ailen .

Udon soup , this is so nice .

She so pretty .  ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

WTH . I dont want to say Jinhan anymore . LOL ,

Karma comes around ~ My head is getting bigger -o-

Twist in my hand

Its a sunday today , :D Initally , my mummy want to bring me for haircut , but ... today the

salon have too much people , so tomorrow ? Might be , ^^ So happy , I am feeling

uncomfortable with my hair , I really needs one ~

Headed to this Japanese shop and ate , Nice nice ~

Look at my mummy face , hahahahahahah !

Tasty only ~

I am fatigue . -o-

I haven touch my homeworks yet , weekends is for me to enjoy , for me to meet out with my friends .

Dead , I hope next sunday I will want to stay at home and do something -o- . Ooops , its not " want " .

Its a must , I need to . Come on , prove it with actions ? please velle _o_

We trained consistently with long stretches almost everyday , hoping that the standard we reach would

be sufficient to defeat the strong schools out there . I really hoped that next tuesday our performance will

not suffered from anxiety and nervousness . Can we manage to shake our mistakes off and play at the

standard we are capable of ? Well , I am ready , are you girls ready to fight this battle together ? :D

I love all my softballers , there was a time when I gave up on them , but now I stood up and tell myself ,

I could believed them , I could pin hopes on them , I should never never give up on them , because they

can go beyond my expectations , How could I ?

I love them so much , we are a team , and we goes as a team , and we fight together as a team . :D

Its been a emotional ups and downs day for me , I never felt this way before -o- .

Friendly match with Nanhua today , I was so happy , so jubilant ! All my dear girls start hitting

the ball hard , its was a moment of exhilaration for us ! Omg ..so happy heeee ! 

Until something happened .. Allright , its got me so daunted , seriously . I didt know I was so worried

about it , each of us are getting despair , I tried cheering so much , but well .. I just felt that my mouth

was yelling words which dont came from the bottom of my heart , I was dieing , so worried -o- .

& I cried , wth -o-  Luckily you are fine , phew !

On a happy note , I am really happy with my girls performance , A source of tremendous joy , ^

With that , I met up with Ning & Cherlyn on thursday ! ^^

Short day spent , but well we made used of every seconds we have together , :D

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Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

MUACKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

My pillar of strength ,

Not forgetting , there was this day where we celebrate Coach steve bday ! :D , Take a look ,

I didt know he can give such " SWEET-LOOKING " smile also -o-

& look at yixuan , so engrossed ! I cant stop laughing -o- funnyyyyyyyyyy daoooooooooooooooo

Happy bday coach , you looked so happy

I feel so happy

We feel marvellous .

Love my softballers , <3

Say , cause I dont really care . U S S M S T

Energy drained , Fatigue , Wishing , Needs one ,

Homeworks , Tution , Softball . _o_

Although going to school is so boring , but I like , except for the fact that we have to wake up early -o- ..

& I dont like to talk to you about it ,

Neither do I want to share my secrets with you , Oops -o-

Beybey !

I feel like walking away , dont even want to care -o-

But well ...  how could I do that ?

Feeling ailing , I didt turned up for school , instead I went for training , Know why ?

To celebrate COACH STEVE BDAY , how could I missed out something that is sooooooo

important ! Hee , was contemplating about how to surprised him with the bday cake !!!!

Me & Carol was so daunted about it , haha ! Seeing coach steve face , everyone was

triumphant ! So happy ! ^^^^^^

We are not defeated ,

Days goes by ~ I love love love them more more more .

I trudged back home wearily , feeling fatigue now ..

I need to go back school tmr , cant afford to miss any lessons already . D:

Today when I trudged back home , I asked myself ...

Am I able to muster all my courage and determination to overcome obstacles ?

Can I ? Am I going to make it or just give up ? ....

It was a moment I never forget ..