Hey!

CNY for me was allright! Real boring on the first day but the second day was nice because I went out with my cousins. Caught Journey 2 at Vivo. I really miss those times where all of us just feels really comfortable with one another and play around. Things were pretty different as we grow up. This year CNY like nothing much for me also hahaha, just another day actually but my luck quite good la! I won like $20 plus when all I use was $1 hahahahah not bad right!

Will post photos up soon cause the Insert Image button not working so hopefully its okay by tomorrow hahaha so I can post photos.

 

And Im damn guilty but at the same time super grateful. Don't know how to pen it down la. Just feels that my old neighbour uncle treats me super nice can. He really dotes on me alot and its really alot. I didn't even see him treating my sister that nice can. From the day where my mum became my family breadwinner, he's like treating me really well. He buy things for me, he even gave me money. Thats like wah lao eh. I've been rejecting his money since young but I always failed to. He's worried that I got no money to eat, got no money to buy the things I like. But thats not the right thing to do what, give me money although I know he don't mean anything bad.. but sometimes people would misunderstand certain things because of his actions towards me.

And theres this time when I saw him at lot 1, I didn't call out to him because I think its damn awkward since I think I got nothing to talk to him LOL bad la me. But now Im feeling so guilty.. not because of this too. He just treats me too well. Too well to an extent that I really don't know what should I do to repay him. I got no income now.. I can't buy things for him and Im not really close with him also so its like I can't possibly just randomly go visit him. I'm just going to like treats him and his family members well when I start earning money. Needs to repay his kindness man. Its gonna be my job next time although so awkward because not really close with him want LOL. but thats part of being human. When people treats you well, you should do the same too if not KARMA come wahahaha. You got to believe in KARMA man.

And I just personally feels that somehow your own relatives doesn't even treats/understands you as well as outsiders. So many masks around, fake smiles here and there -o-. Somehow outsiders are more trueful/sincere to you.

Alah I so grateful to so many things. Need to do work nowwwwww! Byebye tmr i try post photos

 

Today is CNY Eve! Don't really have the ' feel ' but its allright because what matters most are the HOLIDAYS! Hahahaha damn SHUANG.

Allright so the SP softball girls organise a steamboat reunion dinner at Enqi house! Bought all the foods from JP Fairprice and off we go to Enqi house hehehe. Had so much fun preparing and nuaing on the sofa taking photos.

After steamboat, some of us went to Sharon's house for stayover! Hahahaha fun and eh funny?! Hahaha especially the part where me, Sharon and Enqi was the only three awake. It was super joke and funny but neverthless, I had fun la!!! LOL I AM SMILING NOW Hahahah, just thought of what me, sharon and enqi was doing hahaha can't help but to smile la! LOL

 

Aiyooo so many photos again... I flooded this post with photos again... =p

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Took a group photo when I was washing the plates. This kinda explain why my face looks like that. -o-

I love this photo because it seems like all of them love me so much, all surround me hahahahahahahaha. I must be thinking too much again~~ Hohoho.

Jinhan, Belinda, Me, Boo and Nicole. The year 1s!

Me and gfffff wah lao face damn round can.. you see the photos below..

 

Isn't this sweetttttttttt but I bloody hate my inproportional skin color -o-

 

wah lao really so rounddddddddddddddd

 

Atiqah and Sharon!

Me, Sharon, Jinhan and Lilin!

 

I think Jinhan look damn pretty here!!! Agree with meeeeeeeeeeeeeee? YES.

 

 

Its been so long since I think I look cute in a photo.

I think I look cute here with the twist and that cheeky smile hahahahahaha!

 

HAHAHA

 

Before we CHIONG AH!

 

 

 

 

With Sharon!!! @tummypao

 

 

 

 

With BOOOOOO!!

 

Poloraids taken!

 

 

I haven't really get my CNY clothes yet. I think I'll just wear those eh... Idk what to wear also LOL.

And damn it la, I'm seriously good at procrastinating. I really have a lot of work to do and I know if I gonna leave it to tmr, I'll be really tiring but then I really don't wanna do it today leh. You see twitter, everybody enjoying, noone is doing work so... I should relax also right? Allright I am just going to really relax today, paint my nail, get my poloraid films ready, find clothes to wear and pack some stuffs hahaha.

Tomorrow come back home I must revise my DATABASE....... this is so shitty :( :(

Allright goodbye theres so much more that I want to say but then........ its okay~~

Happy CNY!

So.. as usual, I am being tied down to school! Alot of work to do, piling up everyday. Kinda struggling with some of my modules. Need to really use this 5 days break to catch up! Not getting enough sleep again.. damn tired.

Sian, I'm not listening in class la. I went to school just for attendance purpose. I never really pay attention. All I did was online shopping, talking or day dreaming. Lol die liao lo.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Like always, met up with the girls on one day of the week!

 

 

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Going out later. Allright damn sleepy now. Will be back with a proper post.. I wanna rest now

 

Back to school! So many assignments again, so pekcek!! Every week also got one deadline. Missed one week of school and theres like so much to catch up on! Alakmak la, don't know how to balance up my time. One of my NYR - To be more consistent towards my studies. Yeah man, saying is definitely easier. Like always, going to be so lack of sleep again. School just..... nevermind ENDURE. I ALWAYS SURVIVE.

Lalalala photos to make myself feels better! And its so tiring to read my post cause theres too many photos. I know I know right but aiyree memories. Its for myself to see only and smileeeeeeee.

 

Tau pok!!!! I REALLY CANNOT FORGET THE INCIDENT where they tau pok me and I got landed in the middle of the bed. Noone come and save me! I was being squeezed in the tiny hole of two single beds and shouting ' Help me help me '. And the girls was there like ' eh this banana prata nice, wanna try? ' and that Jinhan just sat on my head! YES HER WHOLE BUTT WAS ON MY HEAD. It was epic but at the same time PAINFUL YA. I was really breathless that moment. Wanna angry but then can't forced myself to cause it was way too funny! Unforgettable incident!

I find the photo familiar. Did I like post it before?

Waiting to cross the road! Need to take photo also, thats cute.

 

Me, enqi, Jinhan and dinah!

The first three no need introduce. Like obvious LOL. The one holding the camera is BOO!

Jinhan, Boo and Belinda!

 

Hahahah I think I look retarded here. When I saw this photo, I was like LOL. Why I smiled until like this hahahahah!

In the bus!

Dinah dinah~

 

 

 

LOVE THIS PHOTO. ALL OF US LOOK hmm kind of nice here!

 

 

 

With rury!

Taken when we was in the boat.

 

 

With our Jerseys, SP cap on.

And I don't like wearing the SP CAP. ITS SO BIG CAN. I think I might bang onto something one day. Seriously can.

 

Rury, zhonghan and boo. I managed to like squeeze in hohohoo

 

 

Just look at the cap -o-

 

With Coach Albert!

Spent almost every nights outside the corridor chit chatting, having team bonding. The whole level 3 like ours like that!

And last but not least, one of my fav photo together with Jinhan!!

 

 

And ohh I got back my MST results! I think I did quite okay. Some are unbelievable, some are expected. Some are ya neutral with it. Overall, quite satisfied with it. But yeah, need to work harder to maintain and pull up those not very well done want.

Allright. I need to constantly remind myself its nothing, this is nothing. I must stop expecting.. this is sad but then I need to control myself. I just need to be myself. Yes be myself. Who know whats gonna happen next, I don't know too but then before anything, I know I need to be myself first.

Okay goodnight. Tomorrow only WEDNESDAY..... Next monday one deadline. I got no ideas, how to do....

Lalalalala! I'm bored now so I think I should post some photos of Chiangmai trip since the mood is still there anyway. And I missed there so much now. Actually I should said, I miss all the feelings and fun moments there.

 

At Changi Airport before setting off to Chiangmai!

At Bangkok Airport before flying back to Singapore :(

In the plane! SQ HOR. DON'T PLAY PLAY.

Alakmak so round but nvm I love Jinhan.

 

And here we are, in Chiangmai Phucome Hotel! The hotel was allright, okay okay. Not very good but still it was okay. Just that no hairdryer~

Hahahah our face look so cui here but well memories!

 

At MK Restaurant having steamboat!!

Me, Atiqah, Belinda and Jin han!

Me, Atiqah, Dinah and Enqi

While waiting for the bus~~

And here we are, our 12 hour long bus ride.

Omggg now I'm wondering how did we actually tank for so long!!

 

Fajar softballers!

Yeah, saw Coach Marcus and Coach Steve there! I really really feel super happy to saw them.

Its a pity that we couldn't have dinner over there like how we promised one another because they got too many thai friends liao. Aww sian but then aiya, always a next time. In Singapore someday!

Yes! Our group photo together. I AM REALLY SUPER HAPPY TO SEE THEM. They're so sweet! I miss them so much.

Together with Coach Marcus. Wanted to take photo with Coach Steve initially but I don't know where did he went to.

LOL Piggybank one another. It was super funny!

The sky looks great here, right?

Hmmmm, I think I am not looking at the camera again.

I seriously hate the SP SOFTBALL CAP. ITS SO FREAKING BIG. IT MAKES MY HEAD LOOKS BIG AND TALL. Wah lao super uncomfortable can. I don't like to wear.

Taken at the Night market!

Atiqah, me, belinda, jinhan and chong wee!

I love this photo!!! Its so sweeet and I think the girls are so pro at taking photos, its like theres so many of us and they are able to squeeze all of us in the photo. HAHAHA LI HAI.

wah lao. The sun must be too bright hhhhhmmmmmmm

Let me tell you, this is damn cute! We was stuck at the roadside, having diffculities to cross the road hahaha! We even took a photo and how did we managed to cross the road in the end? All of us raise our hands and scream and run LOL! I swear, its super cute and epic!!! I am laughing now can!!!!

Waiting for our fried rice!

Celebration for countdown of 2012 at the softball field! We played fireworks!!! It was damn fun! So much of screaming and running here and there. We even light up lanterns, wrote our wishes on the lantern. It was my first time doing that and I am really happy!! Its like.. when you see your lantern fly off to the sky, you feel so hmmm whats the right word, allright relieved and well, its a very blissful feeling actually!

This is our lantern! Heheh we wrote all our wishes, I feel so sincere about that.

 

In the hotel room again hehehe! Somehow we looks so fair here.

 

Self-timer again and awww this is sweet too!

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While waiting to go in to the plane~

Anyway the one wearing beanie is weekai and the one beside him is zhonghan!

Both really funny guys, they're really nice too.

 

Sian.. I hate it when I don't get enough sleep because I look very very sleepy and ugly when my eyesbag are so big!

 

With my beloved!

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Now we're on the plane, back to Singapore. SIAN LA.

Chongwee!

Jowell and Jin han!

And tuduuu back to Singapore. Welcome back home but sian, I don't feel like it because I think I really live like a queen there. Everyday wake up no need to tidy up my bed, no money problems cause I have endless to spend, nothing to worry about. Everyday I play, eat, sleep. Though I only get like 4 to 6 hours of sleep per day but everything just feels so right. Waking up next to Jinhan, I feels nice too. So many good memories there that I definitely rmb for life!

And thanks my dearest girls and xy, kt and sean for coming to fetch us! Honestly speaking, I feel really tired and doesn't want to have dinner in the first place because all I wanted was go back home hahaha! But unexpectedly, I feel happy when I see their faces. Yes, I really do missed them! Glad to have dinner with them and thanks for coming down to fetch us. Its so tiring to just take bus, change to mrt all these. Your efforts, I saw it! Really appreciate it.

Always in my heart!

 

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Will post more photos once the other girls uploaded it. Good and bad memories. For the bad memories, well I don't know what should I comment, shall just keep it to myself. Theres this day where all SP SOFTBALL GIRLS play in the diamond today. I really love the feeling. Its like I can feel the fire burning and deep down, theres this really strong feeling that I really don't know how to express it out over here. And weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, I am really really happy when I thought of all the special incidents and little moments! THANK YOU CHIANGMAI TRIP. I AM V HAPPY.

 

Goodnight :)

I'm back from CHIANGMAI! IT WAS REALLY REALLY REALLY FUN!!! We took many many photos but then I think I'll only post some really nice and sweet want! I don't know how should I start posting on this trip because this trip have been so much more that I couldn't possibly convey just on this space. Theres so many special incidents and little moments that are really unforgettable. I'm smiling whenever I thought about it, ahhh those sweetness hahaha!

I think the whole SP Softball Team got bonded in some way or another! The girls and guys finally talked and some of us bonded I think quite well! I know them better now and whats even nicer is that I get to see the different sides of them which I thought I would never ever get to. All of them are really nice and funny in their own way. This trip was really great! THANK YOU CHIANGMAI! YOU MADE ALL OF US BONDED!

This Chiangmai trip was really an unforgettable experience! Hopefully, this year there will be one more trip again yeahhh!!

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Here are only some photos! Really is SOME. I'll post more photos bit by bit! :)

Ahhhh and I feels really sweet and happy now!!!

Its 2012! I got no feelings as in.. now?! I didn't turn up for school today too, tired and lazy. I guess I would only have the 2012 feeling when I get back to school because its when I really need to face the reality and get ready to be busy again. Don't like it, hate it but well no choice, so let's look at a brighter side and say.. hmmmmmmm LET'S GO, I CAN DO THIS. :)

 

AND I AM STILL SMILING NOW WAH LAO OMG

My christmas was great! My eve was spent with my girls while Christmas day was spent with the guys! AHH I AM SO HAPPY LA. I AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE THEM!!! I'd so much FUN!!! I hope holidays never end!! Wake up.

I got many many photos!! I didn't took with the guys except poloraids. hehe Im seriously going to flood this post with lots of photos!! If see until so giddy.. sorry!

Xmas eve was spent at Jiayu's house for steamboat! Wanted to head out after steamboat but all of us was too lazy, too full to even move. So.. we nua the whole day there!! But it was nice! It feels good to be back together, it feels NICEEE. I'm smiling while typing this!!!! ^^^^^

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

LOL. All the photos my face like .... cause I was too full and LOL lazy to sit straight and take photos. Ahhh I am freaking tired now. I go to bed now, tomorrow then I continue upload.

Goodnight! :) GAMBATEH! CHIONG MY WORK TMR!!

 

Hello! 2.0.1.1

For me, 2011 ah tough year! A lot of things happened, friends, family, studies, softball. A lot of ups and downs for me this year. But towards everything that had happened either in a good or bad way, I'm definitely thankful. I'm older now but yeah, I matured a lot and I know what I want now. Thats what I personally feel.

Friends

Towards my close friends, I think all of us have grew, hmm in someway or another. I saw all the changes between us. I'm happy to see all of us still meeting up often, still making efforts to keep our friendship going. Of cause, there are times where I feel the distance between for all of us are in different schools now, met new friends and ya, I saw the changes between us. But at the end of the day, I think they are still the ones that gonna be with me for the rest of my life hehehe.

Family

A lot of things happened to my family this year. Again, I saw a lot of changes and I foreseen there will be a lot more changes. Very soon. Things got bad but then it kind of made me realise a lot of things. Life is unfair, so much unfair but ya accept it. Just to say, if you have a really nice family where all your family members just bond really well, please appreciate it and be contented. There are so many people who really wish they're like you.

Studies

Hmm studies. Being in poly doesn't seems as easy as what I thought it would be. Sibei stress can. I got into the course that I doesn't want to. I regret, I blame myself for choosing this course but for now, I got a different thinking. I learned a lot through studies. I don't mean the studies part but I kind of became more motivated and know what I really want to do towards my studies. The first semester for me was wah I tell you a disaster, I hate my course, I don't know what I am doing. My results for MST was astrocious. I'm so stress up. Projects/Assignments are like piling up and everyday, I'm only able to get like 5 to 6 hours of sleep sometimes even lesser and its seriously killing me. I cried like almost every week but it feels good after crying hahaha.

But.. one day I just wake up. I don't know what wake me up but I just kind of wake up?! LOL. I studied hard, give in my best in all my work and yeah I did it hehehe!!! I can't believe it too when I saw my GPA but I know I did it because of my hardwork. And from then on, for everything I do, I always tell myself just put in my best first, results second. I'm still really stress up this semester. I still cry. Although crying doesn't solve any problems but it feel super good. And now through studies, I find my philosophy of life. :)

Softball

Hahaha so much changes. So many times where I just feel like giving up because I feel so different. Ya I admit I couldn't adapt to all the changes and I admit I am biased which I know I shouldn't be la. But there are always some things that happened that make me feel this way. And I can't help but to always rememeber the bad times, all the bad things you said about the people I love and respect. I just can't forget, I want to but I can't. And the look you gave.. ya I just got turned off -o-. I'm still learning to accept you and I kind of get used to certain things. I saw the changes now, you finally start to recognized my efforts, well I'm thankful but still.. theres certain things about you that I still can never get to accept it. And its true, my passion for softball fades a lot and yes its a lot. But no wait, I'm gonna be better because I don't want to disappoints the people who I respect and love.

But the girls are really nice :)

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I learned a lot and I realise a lot of things. Although a lot of things didn't go the way I thought they would but they didn't exactly go south either. School hasn't been smooth, draining more than ever but then I'll keep myself going :)! I don't know why am I here now, in this course and in whatever situation I am now but I always believes everything happens for a reason and everything will definitely turns out the way that it supposed to turn out. What I'm trying to say is don't stress out too much about the decisions I made because if everything if going to turn out right in the end.. then it doesn't matter what you decide to do because you can't make the wrong decision? AIYA  Its like.. if you believe that everything will turn our right in the end then whatever you do, no matter what, it will be the right thing. Everything will works out okay in the end, if its not okay... its kind of not the end..

And I'm gonna to add a few drops of paint into that cup of water and watch the color run, you know to let all sorts of wonders to follow. Well.. Am I ready to see the change now?

 

Allright thats pretty sum up my 2011. Tough but I learned and I got stronger huhu.

 

My resolutions

1. Don't always be so last min, be more consistent in my work

2. Save $$$$

3. Always do my best, results comes second

4. Be more brave

5. Be more confidence in myself

 

Goodnight and 2012, I got a feeling it gonna be a tough year ahead but then its okay! I CAN SURVIVE BECAUSE I ALWAYS SURVIVED!

 

 

 

IUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!

 

MST over!!! Today marks the 1st week of my 3 weeks holidays break yeah!!! So happy, finally can REST! Been counting down since school starts. After this 3 week, I still got 7 more weeks to go before the 6 weeks break. And that 7 weeks gonna be toturing again. But don't care first, enjoy my holidays first hehehe. :D

My MST are not well done! I didn't put in much effort so ya, I don't expect much this time so its allright. I still have a number of assignments to do, I gonna finish it before I go chiangmai if not cannot enjoy myself there.

Anyway, I'll be going to Chiangmai from 28th to 5. 9 days there, will be there from 2011 to 2012 HAHAHA I make it sounds so long, no la only 9 days :) Trainings are almost everyday now except saturday, everybody are working hard now for Chiangmai so I must work hard too, in order to prove it to you. GAMBATEH!

Will do a post on my reflections of 2011 soon, before I go Chiangmai. I think I got so much to talk about it hahaha nevermind I talk to myself cause I think the post will be a long one....

Loving the weather now. Its so cooling, I like hehe. And Christmas's coming. Got a feeling it gonna be a good one this year, hehe so I'm pretty excited actually.

Allright, goodbye! I love holidays!! Its the only period where I get to enjoy myself and not having so much stress. And its the only period where I get to replenish my sleep. Yeah yeah yeah so happy.

This holiday gonna be a awesome one! Goodbye ^.>

Huhuhuhuhuhu. I feel good now despite the fact that exams starts next week and I haven't even started. :)

My WCD Assignment is down! Yea ^.>. Submitted today and I feels so happy! Felt so demoralised at some point of time because all my friends are so pro at codes and I'm really stress up over the codes and my layout. All my codes are mess up and I redo everything again lo. You won't be able to imagine how worried I am, can't even sleep well. Really never thought I could did it by myself(LIKE ONCE AGAIN ) because I depends a lot on my friends.. but I actually can.. something nice to know.

And I think I should really stop depending so much on my friends although I know I always needs them to explain things to me again and again. -o- Sometimes I really think I pissed them off for asking them so many qns and getting them to repeat so many times. They are so nice to me and I am grateful for that. But nope, I am going to try to do all the things myself. Must try not to depend on anybody like this time! I CAN DO THIS. Okay stay positive abit

Happy that I did my very best for my work although I'm already super tired. Finished my WCD yesterday at 3.28A.M but its okay because I am so happy la really very happy!! Life's wonderful once again.

I don't know but I feel that working hard/giving your best efforts at something you don't like/like is something really nice. The feeling is wonderful! Although theres bound to be a lot of demoralising moments but the end acheivement will always be so sweet even if you don't get the result you expected. Thats what I believe in so.. I think I found my philosophy for life today. Somehow? - Whatever life throws, I will just give in my best efforts. Hahaha somehow oh well~

 

Let's end with some photos before I start revising. Its 1.09A.M _)_

Hahahaha lol lol lol

 

Need to meet out friends, need to study = No time to sleep.

I think I will never be able to get the kind of rest I deserved.

 

Study hard people! :)

 

How do you get up from an all time low~~~~~